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A Grief Observed One Year Later - Feb 5, 2019

"The tragedy of modern man is not that he knows less and less about the meaning of his own life,

but that it bothers him less and less." - Vaclav Havel (Letters to Olga - 1980)

My father’s death on February 5, 2018 sent me back on a journey. This time the journey was driven by grief. It sent me back to the big questions: Why am I here? What is my purpose? Are we eternal? What is important? What is absolute? This was the third time in my life I was willing to be fully open to various commentary on the big ideas as I want to know truth, not as it is comfortable to me, but as it is.

If I could decide what truth would be I would choose a faith that says, “It all ends well for everyone.” As we know, this is not true in reality, and I have no ability to create truth as I want it, I was once again searching.